Phildo

I'll never know what you're feeling inside...

2005-07-11T04:45:57Z

Well many things have taken place since the last update.I got to go an a nice long Vacation in my absolute favorite place (besides here). Caseville. That is the one place where I can just get my head back in order. I wish i didn't have to work so that I could just spend the majority of the summer up there. So much fun. Four Wheeling, Jet Skiing, beach time, Fireworks, Fires, etc. I am making it a goal to meet a girl up there. I have come to the conclusion that I have no chance with anyone here. So I'm hoping that if i can meet someone there, maybe I'll have more of a chance. But anyways... My vacation was really fun. Prolly could have been better if my Uncle Kevin was still here. This was always his holiday. God I miss him. Yeah. I got home and did nothing that day. Today I went to my grandparents house for some swimming. Then when I got home Ryan Tom and Tony came over. We only stayed here for a short time. We went to Tony's house for a fire. It was cool.

I wish I could figure out whats happening to me. Nothing it as goo das it was in the past. I have no clue what so ever about anything anymore. So much that I can't even write.

I wonder why...

2005-06-26T12:53:13Z

So it's been a few days since I've been in here. This summer isn't improving that much. I'm working a lot now and it's eating all of my time. But I found out yestarday that I might be losing my job anyways. Yeah work made me miss the fireworks a couple days ago. I worked my first eight hour day yestarday. It sucked. And now I have to work another one today. After work was fun though. I went to Kyle Hough's graduation party. That was fun. I had to wake up at like 7 in the morning though. That royally sucked. But what are you gonna do. I don't even know what the hell is going on with my head. I am seriously so lost about stuff it's unreal. But I don't know. I'm not gonna waste my time complaining about what I want.

Sooner or later...

2005-06-21T04:33:41Z

Well this summer has been extremely gay so far. My summer didn't even get a good kick off. Like 5 minutes after being out of school, my terrible event happened. (I just want to forget about that) So with that already being one of the worst things possible, all I've basically done is hang out around the house and then work on the days that I have to. The only decent days I've had were Saturday and Sunday. On Saturday i got to go to the Gratiot Cruise. Even though I only got to saty for about 45 minutes. Then I had to work. Then Sunday was Father's Day. That day was sweet. I went to my Grandparents' house for most of the day. We BBQ'd and swam for the whole day. But to top that day off, I had to work. Today wasn't that bad. I actually did something. I hung out with Jesse and Ryan for most of the day. When Jesse had to go home, Ryan and I went to Corrina's house for a little bit. That was fun. But now I'm just sitting home bored out of my skull. I need some plans for the Summer. Otherwise, it will just suck like it already has been. Or it will suck just like my previous 2 summers.

And I'm Not Sorry...

2005-06-11T18:32:07Z

Well, this week has been alright. This whole week in school has been nothing but torture because of the weather. But school gets out on Thursday. So I'm excited about that. Umm..... I started work this week. I finally got a job at Krogers. It hasn't been to bad yet. I do gotta work today though. My parents let me and Jaim stay home alone this weekend because my parents and other siblings went up north. Yestarday was fun. Ryan, Heather, and Erik all came over. We stayed here for a little bit then went to Eriks. After there, we went swimming at Ryan's. When that was all over, Ryan spent the night. And that about sums things up.

Oh yeah. Upon thinking some more, I've decided that I really want a girlfriend.

Tell me again...

2005-06-06T02:32:53Z

This weekend actually turned out a lot better than I thought it would. Friday I babysat for 5 hours, which wasn't bad because we played basketball for the entire time. Saturday, had a job interview, then a family BBQ, and once all that was done, I spent the rest of the day with Ryan and Tom. I ended up spending the night at Ryan's. It was fun. Then today, I went with Ryan to his job test. After that we both went to the Swim Team Car Wash and got our rides cleaned. After that, we went to Ryan's house and swam for like 5 hours. It was soo fun. Then we came over here for like an hour. Then left again for Ryan's house for dinner. We had ribs and potatoes. It was soo frickin awesome! Once we were all done eating, Jaim and Lindsay wanted to come over. So we went and got them. We swam again for like a half hour and then the huge storm hit and i was rushed home. It was funny though cause Jaim and Lindsay were freaking out soo much because of the thunder and lightning. It was funny. Then when I finally got home, I took a shower and realized that I am sunburned to a crisp. I'm talking lobster red. But I don't really care.

Why is it everyday that I feel the pain?

2005-06-02T00:09:19Z

Well, can't say last weekend was a bad one. I went to my favorite place away from home... Caseville. I wasnt able to bring a fried this time which was okay because Ryan, Jesse, and Kyle were up at Ryan's place. So on friday i went there after school. I got up there about 7ish. Did nothing that day. Saturday my whole moms side cme up which was chaotic. I met up with Ryan that day. We didn't hang out for very long but we each showed each other's place to each other. Later on Ryan, Jesse, and Kyle stopped by my place again and we just hung out for a little while. When they left, I just chilled with my cousin for the night. Sunday, I went to the beach for the first half of the day. Once i was done there, my cousin and I went to Ryan's and went Four-Wheeling for like 3 hours. Good stuff. Then when we were all done, my cousin and I just stayed at my place. So on Monday, my family packed up and left. I didn't end up leaving until like 6. Then like a 1/2 hour into the drive home, we had to turn around and go back because we forgot to do something. So after all that was done i just came home and did nothing. Yestarady was just an all out bad day. I had my depression going on all day at school. Then once I got out my mom called me and yelled at me for driving because I had no insurance. So that really made me mad. Then I went to Ryan's to work out. Then he came over and right the instant i walked in the door, my mom calls again and said that absolutely no friends are allowed over. So I was forced to make Ryan walk home which then totally ruined my day and made me feel like a complete piece of shit. Then today wasn't much different. Depression was it.

It's Times Like These...

2005-05-25T02:17:30Z

WOW! Total change of moods. It's weird, Monday I was so excited, and now its like i dont even know.... i love my sister Jaimie!(she wrote that) even though i do love her. But I dont have a clue as to why i am the way i am. :-(

OYE LOCA!!!

2005-05-22T21:51:49Z

Oh man. What a great weekend. I went to my cottage in Caseville for the first time since February. It was sooo much fun. I brought up Tommy D and I think he had fun too. I went fishing and all that good stuff and then when the day was over, the bond fires were fun. My cousin was up there too. He brought a friend as well. They were tite. This was seriously one of the funnest weekeneds I've ever had. And i can look forward to this through the whole summer. It's gonna be sweet. :-D

Rain, rain go away...

2005-05-14T04:16:21Z

Haven't updated lately. Not too much has changed since the last entry. I am still feeling the same things. But other than that everything is pretty much the same. Some days have been different. Like today. For some reason I played Poker and I ended up winning alot. That was cool. I also hung out with some friends. Good stuff.

Take a photograph, it'll be the last
not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here
i don't have a past i just have a chance
not a family or honest plea remains to say

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun

is it you i want or just the notion of your heart to wrap around
so i can find my way around
safe to say from here your getting closer now
we are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun

to lie here under you is all that i could ever do
to lie here under you is all

to lie here under you is all that i could ever do
to lie here under you is all

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun
all the world is waiting for the sun
all the world is waiting for the sun

It'd take a miracle....

2005-05-02T23:23:23Z

Oh man. Not much has changed as of late. I am still having these sad and depressed stages that don't seem to be going away. I am all alone. I don't really get out that much. I really want to just be around my friends but no one is ever around. Plus I am still searching for that someone. I really want a relationship with someone.

Can Anybody Find Me Somebody To Love?

2005-05-01T04:58:35Z

Today was cool. Tommy D spent the night last night. Fun stuff. We got up and went to his house to work out. Then after that i came home and got a shower and all that business. When i was done with that, Ryan called. So I went over there and we left right away to go look at Car Audio stuff at Best Buy and Circuit City with him and Tommy D. It was cool. Then we came back and Nicole came over. I drove her back to Circuit City to pick up her car. Then we went to BK cause I had to pick up food for the Kiddies. Once we were all done with that, Nicole went out and Tom, Ryan, Erik, and I all went to Tony's for the night. It was pretty sweet. Then Ryan and I went to Taco Bell. Very interesting conversations through out the night. Mostly about girls. I want a girfriend so bad, no one understands. It's been 2 years since I had one. I really want to find that someone. :-(

You're a Memory......

2005-04-29T02:36:30Z

Today was not bad but not good. School. Enough said. Bowling was funny though. After school I had a lot of running around to do. I put out 3 more applications, i had to pick up dinner at 2 places for everyone, i had to go places and run errands, etc. At least it kept me busy. Then I went to TOmmd D's for like an hour.

Ask me why i hate....

2005-04-27T21:43:05Z

These last few days have kinda sucked. It's alright when im with some friends but when im not, its like torture. I just sit around and think of everything that i hate (smoking, people i dislike, things i dislike, stuff in the future, etc.) then i just get totally depressed and seriously bummed out. Then once im done with the hate part, i think about people and how they might think of me. I think about how badly i wish i could get a girlfriend. By that time im just bummed to the point where i just wish i could do something but i come to the reality that i cant really. So yeah i really wish things would be different sometimes. :-( :-/

It'd be nice....

2005-04-26T22:56:33Z

Taday was cool. The whole day i was kinda mad about all this stuff thats happening around me. But as the day moved on it got kinda better. Right after school i went to the mall and got some applictaions. Then went to Karen's house and hung out there for a while. We watched this goofy "horrer" movie from the 70's (it was more funny than scary). We also watched some recordings of like 7th grade (funny stuff). Then everyone had to be out of there by 11 so almost everyone went to Denny's and I just kinda went on to Taco Bell and proceded home to do nothing. But all in all it was a decent day.

OKAY!

2005-04-22T01:25:14Z

today was pretty tite. School was gay (big surprise). After i came home, i started doing my chores and Nicole called me to come over. That didn't last too long cause i had to drive Jaim to Sam's. Then i came home and finished the chores. After that Heather called and wanted to know if I wanted to go the a Soccer game with her. So i did and we stayed for the whole thing. When it was all done we went to Baskin Robbins for ice cream and to see Karen at work. I saw Catie Ferrara there. It was kinda awkward. Then chilled with Heather;-)

WOW i am in dire need of a girlfriend :-/ :-(

Let me Whisper in Your Ear

2005-04-18T02:29:18Z

This weekend was pretty tite. Friday i went to the baseball/softball games. After all of that, i hung out with Tom, Thom, Erik, and Josh. We just chilled here for most of the day. Then i was supposed to hang out with Nicole but stuff happend. So that day didn't really end to well. Saturday i went to the baseball game. When that was over i didn't do much till later. I picked up Melonie and she came over and stayed the night. I also hung out with Thom and Erik. That was cool. When we were done, i decided to stop by the party my parents were at. It was funny. Then i got home and some plans feel through. So i went to Taco Bell and then just sat on the comp. till my parents got home. Then today i had HW to do. I got done a lot quicker than i thought i would, so i went to get a car wash. After that was all done Tommy D called me and we chilled for a little bit. Then we met up with Josh and Erik. We hung out for a while. Then i came home and did some more HW and went to Nicole's for a tiny bit.

What it is yo!

2005-04-15T01:45:32Z

Well nothing too great to report lately. The only pluses are that im driving to and from school and everywhere in between. Im really not looking forward to this weekend. Most of my frinds are leaving to go places for the weekend. So now its gonna be me and like 4 people. Ill make it fun though. But yeah... im really hoping these coming up weeks are funner and more interesting. Thats all i gotta say. (and my cool sister Jaimie and I hanging out this weekend)(By the way this is Jaimie talking right now :o)

ALLLL RIIIIGHT!

2005-04-10T13:50:41Z

OH YEAH!! THATS RIGHT, I, Philip Gregory Dutchak, passed the road test! the only negative about this sort of thing is that i have to wait till monday to go to Secterary Of State >:-( So now i only have one day to wait till i get it. Plus (in case you already didn't know) i got my hair chopped off. There is a picture of it right here.

School

2005-04-05T01:32:24Z

yeah school started up again today. didnt like that too much. it was actually a kinda fast day. i was surprised. but other than that all i have to look forward to is the week ahead we get out 1 hour earlier every day thats cool. but thats all i gotta say. im out

Today

2005-04-02T06:07:27Z

Today ended up being pretty sweet... i did chores till like 3 then got in the shower and like right after i was out Heather called me to see if i wanted to go see a movie with her. So i went with her Thom and Ryan to see Hide and Seek. That movie freaked me out cause im a sissy but it was a good one. After that we went to Heathers and decided to go to Ryan's. We chilled there and played Taboo. Fun stuff. Then we just hung around and i left at like quarter to 12 and now im bored.

OK

2005-04-01T16:45:05Z

well i have been really bored lately so i judt now decided to start writing in this thing again so i guess i will up date later